Jesus Calling was so good today .. I am doing my best to stay STEADY w/ the Lord in my restlessness ... His strength and power are SO SUSTAINING !!! He is the reason many days I stand up and use my voice even when I feel like I have hit a wall, been kicked to curb, or had the door slammed in my face ... I have to tell myself that it is NOT me people say NO too !!! I have to tell myself it is NOT me people don't want !!! I have to tell myself that it is NOT me they are turning their backs on - IT IS THE MESSAGE OF JESUS I BRING ... He can shoulder it all  ... I am so weak, sensitive, pouty, and sad at times and yet he stands in front of me and STANDS TALL ... He brings his good news through me NO matter what ... I am a vessel for him !!! I want it pouring out of me even when I feel like the cracks are bigger than the spout ...

JESUS is the main thing ... I WANNA KEEP THE MAIN THING THE MAIN THING !!!