I am sitting with this for a bit ... I want to KNOW God !!!  I remember one of my days in Africa Katie, the girls, and I went to spend Easter w/ Renee.  Renee is one of Katie's friends who also runs a feeding program and helps mothers when their children are not thriving (or to be more specific ... they are dying of malnutrition) ... I remember holding and feeding two precious angels when Scott called me ... I went out into the back yard and began telling him where I was and all about the precious children Renee was caring for ... I began to weep ... I was so overwhelmed with the POOR and NEEDY in these tiny helpless bodies that God was enveloping my heart ... He was making it hard for me to breathe or even to talk w/ Scott on the phone ... I couldn't even put into words what I was experiencing ... I remember thinking, "How can I describe this to you when you are in the United States."  It was day after day after day of seeing the mixture of HOPELESSNESS AND HOPE ... How do these two things co-exist ??? They exist because a situation may be hopeless, but we love and serve the God of HOPE ... simply if we want to know HIM then we have to go and share HIS truth and LOVE to all HIS PEOPLE .... it is not about doing good or feeding the poor or giving a child a home, but it is about KNOWING HIM !!! Oh, how I want to KNOW Him more ... SEE Him more ... ACT for Him more !!!