OK, I have just decided to log in my thoughts here (wish I would have done this on the CRAZY LOVE book) ... Because I need to remind myself of what God reveals to me as I go along ... He is so good to move my spirit, give me a thought or teach me a lesson ...

"I could show God I was available to Him without actually having to do anything."  This is a line from the book before the author takes the job at World Vision ... You see God was moving him in this direction, but he really didn't want to go, so the whole time he is being available and open to God's will when he is actually hoping he comes in second so he can let himself off the hook and pretend he gave it his best effort...

I mean how often do we (DO I) open the door just wide enough to peek out or raise my hand up just the slightest bit or stand in the back of line pretending I am AVAILABLE and READY, but desperately hoping they don't pick me, choose me for the job or accept my help ...

I mean seriously ... I am laughing my head off right now ... I could list a few of these moments in my life ... And we do it like God can't really see our motives ... hilarious ... So I will try to let my YES  be YES and realize I can't be everything to everyone, but I want to be right smack dab in the center of God's will!

stay tuned for more ... the kids are home on a snow day (pictures to come), but I have the little ones down watching a movie and I am reading ...