Monday, October 24, 2011
WHO AM I ???
I am a 41 year old wife and mother and DAUGHTER OF THE KING (who has a bad diet coke/diet mtn. dew habit) ... I met my husband when I was 14 years old and we are about the celebrate our 21st anniversary ... Our lives have had a lot of ups and downs ... I think almost daily now how thankful I am the LORD didn't give up on us and our marriage early on ... Before children we were self-absorb and selfish MOST OF EVERYDAY and unfortunately that is something that still creeps in ... We had been married almost 10 years before we had Jeremiah ... I will never forget going to my 10 year class reunion w/ a beautiful 10 week old baby boy and then by my 20th class reunion I had 6 kids ... I MEAN HOW HILARIOUS IS THAT !!! So thankful God got a hold of my heart and my plan to turn our eyes towards HIS PLAN for our life ... The thought of missing the ROLLER COASTER I AM ON RIGHT NOW WOULD BE HAVE BEEN SO SAD ... I LOVE MY LIFE !!!
I am one of those people that just needs about 60 seconds to really get mad, whine, or vent about something then I am over it, but boy during that 60 seconds I am shelling it out big time!!! ... I am a GLASS HALF FULL kind of GIRL ... There is just no sense in dwelling on things I can't control or people who choose to have their own opinion of me and my family ... The LORD has way to much for me to do, be blessed with, and to see in a day to worry on the things HE HAS TOLD ME ARE NOT MY CONCERN ...
There are days when I experience every emotion that is out there - JOY, happiness, anger, SADNESS, frustration, envy, CONTENTMENT, satisfaction, and so much more ...It just makes me so aware of how easy it is when I am in the midst of certain emotions to take my eyes off the GOAL OF THE DAY and then I just reel myself back in ... I am sometimes hard to keep up with (hee hee) - my mind is going a mile a minute ... If only I had about 5 administrative assistants to just carry out all the projects and thoughts in my head ... I can be a lot to handle in a situation because of my passion for orphans, my family, my friends, and the LORD ... I am not a complicated person, but simply a person who loves who I love deeply - SO MY ADVICE is don't mess w/ that !!! hee hee When I am studying my bible or listening to someone preach I like for the simple truth of the word ... God didn't make it complicated and to make it anything other than what it is I just don't cater to ... I know so many lost people and I want my words and actions to be clear and simple - LOVE EACH OTHER, SERVE EACH OTHER, AND SHARE GOD'S GLORY ...
I am energetic and love using what God has given me to share HIS STORY in our life ... There is nothing special about our STORY except it is full of just being OBEDIENT to his call (even when it doesn't make sense) ... If I have said it once then I have said it 100 times -- this is not the life I had pictured ... And it is in the darkest times over the last 7 years that I have seen my HEAVENLY FATHER at HIS finest ... I have allowed him to pick me up, give me strength, be the great healer, and show me what it is to really LOVE someone no matter what they give back to you ... IT IS THE MOST PURIFYING thing ever ... My soul feels so focused these days and even though the selfish me comes out here and there, I know how to REEL her back in and dive back into to what the LORD has for me ...
I am a work in progress and know the LORD has so much more for me and that makes me GIDDY ... I love that he can us a MESS like me AND MAKE IT INTO A MESSAGE !!!
I am thankful for all the stories you have shared with me that has shaped and encouraged my days ...
Hoping the next 10 years are as eventful and full of the LORD's JOY as the last 10 years have been !!!
I am one of those people that just needs about 60 seconds to really get mad, whine, or vent about something then I am over it, but boy during that 60 seconds I am shelling it out big time!!! ... I am a GLASS HALF FULL kind of GIRL ... There is just no sense in dwelling on things I can't control or people who choose to have their own opinion of me and my family ... The LORD has way to much for me to do, be blessed with, and to see in a day to worry on the things HE HAS TOLD ME ARE NOT MY CONCERN ...
There are days when I experience every emotion that is out there - JOY, happiness, anger, SADNESS, frustration, envy, CONTENTMENT, satisfaction, and so much more ...It just makes me so aware of how easy it is when I am in the midst of certain emotions to take my eyes off the GOAL OF THE DAY and then I just reel myself back in ... I am sometimes hard to keep up with (hee hee) - my mind is going a mile a minute ... If only I had about 5 administrative assistants to just carry out all the projects and thoughts in my head ... I can be a lot to handle in a situation because of my passion for orphans, my family, my friends, and the LORD ... I am not a complicated person, but simply a person who loves who I love deeply - SO MY ADVICE is don't mess w/ that !!! hee hee When I am studying my bible or listening to someone preach I like for the simple truth of the word ... God didn't make it complicated and to make it anything other than what it is I just don't cater to ... I know so many lost people and I want my words and actions to be clear and simple - LOVE EACH OTHER, SERVE EACH OTHER, AND SHARE GOD'S GLORY ...
I am energetic and love using what God has given me to share HIS STORY in our life ... There is nothing special about our STORY except it is full of just being OBEDIENT to his call (even when it doesn't make sense) ... If I have said it once then I have said it 100 times -- this is not the life I had pictured ... And it is in the darkest times over the last 7 years that I have seen my HEAVENLY FATHER at HIS finest ... I have allowed him to pick me up, give me strength, be the great healer, and show me what it is to really LOVE someone no matter what they give back to you ... IT IS THE MOST PURIFYING thing ever ... My soul feels so focused these days and even though the selfish me comes out here and there, I know how to REEL her back in and dive back into to what the LORD has for me ...
I am a work in progress and know the LORD has so much more for me and that makes me GIDDY ... I love that he can us a MESS like me AND MAKE IT INTO A MESSAGE !!!
I am thankful for all the stories you have shared with me that has shaped and encouraged my days ...
Hoping the next 10 years are as eventful and full of the LORD's JOY as the last 10 years have been !!!
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11 kind words.:
What a beautiful testimony you are living out! Blessed to call you FRIEND! Now when are we gonna schedule that coffee or lunch date?!
Love & Blessings,
Kim
Gwen that was awesome! Made me giggle a few times too! I love you and how God shines in you and through you!
Big hugs sweet friend!
Jill
What an absolutely beautiful post, Gwen! Thank you for sharing. You inspire me greatly!
Blessings,
Susan
Just have to say thank!!!! I read your post and it just sooo gets me jazzed about sharing the Lord and doing the mundane things of my life for His glory!! You go girl!!!
Preach it sister!! God is truly amazing, because I am a mess too :)
Ok, you are freaking me out. I so think that you are my biological sister, because I struggle with your struggles and have the same passions and burdens you have. Scary. Anyways, I hope you find it encouraging to know that there is another daughter of the King that struggles and has a passion for the same things. I think when I get upset with people "who just don't get it" is the fact that I am still in the process of learning is that I CAN NOT MAKE ANYONE UNDERSTAND THE HEART OF CHRIST, NO MATTER HOW HARD I TRY through HIS strengh. God is the only one who can give eyes to see and ears to hear. That is such a HARD pill for me to swallow because I just desire so bad for others to have this same joy that I KNOW you get, not fluffy happiness, but PURE DEEP and not always pretty JOY! Prayer and perseverance is the only thing we can do and leave the rest to him. Anyways, I hope to meet you one day. I know we would get along just splendly. :)
I went to my 10 year high school reunion ... 8 months pregnant with Baby #6. Sure did!
By the 20 year reunion, I had had Baby #9.
At 30 years (yes, I am THAT old), we had made it to an even DOZEN.
Therefore ... in the next 10 years you can double your kids. Don't you think ???
:) :) :)
Gwen,
You have been and continue to be an encouragement to many. Thank you for sharing your life and for giving glory to God. I pray that He continues to use you and your family to draw others closer to Him.
In Jesus,
Lance Wamble
You are a blessing to everyone who knows you.
You are beautiful, inside and out!!
I love who you are sister and oh, how I share your heart! Keep shining bright!
Love,
Daleea