Friday, July 15, 2011
So We Never Forget
SO WE NEVER FORGET THE FULLNESS OF THE GRACE AND LOVE A FAMILY CAN BRING ...
I want to tell you a little bit about our night last night ... My sweet Maggie is doing very well w/ her skull reconstruction, but where they took out two ribs she is having a lot of pain ... It is has been precious to see some of the nurses we have had over the last 3 1/2 years remember her and talk about how she has grown ... but let's face it HOSPITALS are not fun (4:30 IV draw for blood) ... We are beyond thankful for them, but they can bring back some fears and memories if you spend enough time here like we have ... SO LAST NIGHT was not a good night ... Maggie had a lot of nightmares last night and they took me back to when she had been home about a year and she would scream in the middle of the night "I WANT MY MOM" and I would be right there beside her telling her "Mommy is here, Mommy loves you, Mommy has got you" and she would just keep screaming because she was still asleep ... She was doing that same crying out last night and I just crawled up in bed w/ her and spoke my same soothing words over her ... It took a while, but when she felt my body cuddling hers she fell off to sleep ... She woke this morning and said "Mommy, I had nightmares last night about NEMO." ... It was a swift kick to my heart, because that was the movie I took to China when I went to get her and it was the only the movie she wanted to watch for about the first 3 months home ... She would escape there or if she was screaming ... I would pull up a chair as close to the TV as I could and hold her in my lap and she would focus on it (re-direction) ... We haven't seen that movie in probably over 2 years (honestly it gives me nightmares also cause of the memories I have holding her while she screamed) ... When she told me it was NEMO she was having nightmares about it just brought a since of peace and sadness all at the same time ... PEACE because I know now she has the security to explain to me her hurts and I can help her, but then sadness because no matter how many wounds we heal on the inside and out she will always have that has her history ... My heart aches to be able to erase it all, but I know the FATHER never wants us to forget HOW OUR LOVE HEALS (it doesn't erase) ... The family unit is priceless !!! The love of family is priceless !!! A family can heal w/ the power of CHRIST because he is w/in us ...
It was a really rough night feeling helpless, but when the light came out the this morning I could see SON SHINING !!!
Thanks for your continued prayers for Maggie ... Please especially pray for NO INFECTION and that her ribs heal so we can move around (cause we can't go home till she is up and moving and eating) ...
I want to tell you a little bit about our night last night ... My sweet Maggie is doing very well w/ her skull reconstruction, but where they took out two ribs she is having a lot of pain ... It is has been precious to see some of the nurses we have had over the last 3 1/2 years remember her and talk about how she has grown ... but let's face it HOSPITALS are not fun (4:30 IV draw for blood) ... We are beyond thankful for them, but they can bring back some fears and memories if you spend enough time here like we have ... SO LAST NIGHT was not a good night ... Maggie had a lot of nightmares last night and they took me back to when she had been home about a year and she would scream in the middle of the night "I WANT MY MOM" and I would be right there beside her telling her "Mommy is here, Mommy loves you, Mommy has got you" and she would just keep screaming because she was still asleep ... She was doing that same crying out last night and I just crawled up in bed w/ her and spoke my same soothing words over her ... It took a while, but when she felt my body cuddling hers she fell off to sleep ... She woke this morning and said "Mommy, I had nightmares last night about NEMO." ... It was a swift kick to my heart, because that was the movie I took to China when I went to get her and it was the only the movie she wanted to watch for about the first 3 months home ... She would escape there or if she was screaming ... I would pull up a chair as close to the TV as I could and hold her in my lap and she would focus on it (re-direction) ... We haven't seen that movie in probably over 2 years (honestly it gives me nightmares also cause of the memories I have holding her while she screamed) ... When she told me it was NEMO she was having nightmares about it just brought a since of peace and sadness all at the same time ... PEACE because I know now she has the security to explain to me her hurts and I can help her, but then sadness because no matter how many wounds we heal on the inside and out she will always have that has her history ... My heart aches to be able to erase it all, but I know the FATHER never wants us to forget HOW OUR LOVE HEALS (it doesn't erase) ... The family unit is priceless !!! The love of family is priceless !!! A family can heal w/ the power of CHRIST because he is w/in us ...
It was a really rough night feeling helpless, but when the light came out the this morning I could see SON SHINING !!!
Thanks for your continued prayers for Maggie ... Please especially pray for NO INFECTION and that her ribs heal so we can move around (cause we can't go home till she is up and moving and eating) ...
Emily loving on her sister ... Emily has been very concerned about them taking her ribs ... They may fight like cats and dogs, but oh the love of family !!!
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11 kind words.:
I just cried reading this. I am in such awe of you and your family. Oh I pray that this world had more people like the Oatsvalls. I see miracles in your family, I see God in your family, I see faith, love, hope and all good things from above in your family. Thank you for giving me more faith and making me appreciate the miracles of Christ.
I'm continually amazed at Maggie and your strength. There are great things in store for Miss Maggie. Continued blessings. Praying for an infection-free recovery. HUGS!!
PRAYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Praying for you all. I intimately understand those nights of "I want my Mommy!" while being right there. Lots and lots of them--my heart aches but is also thankful for the amazing healing through the Lord and a family. Maggie and your whole family is precious!
The love of family is the love of God pouring out and healing. So beautiful!!!
I prayed my grandmother's verse over her last night when I was putting Lily to bed...will pray it again for you tonight...when you lie down , you will not be aftraid; when you lie down, your sleep with be sweet." proverbs 3:24... Love how you give thanks even in the hard parts of life.
Thanks for posting about this, Gwen. So hard, but so true. Thankful for little Maggie!! She is precious. Praying that God continues to bring deep healing to her body and her sweet little heart.
Praying for sweet Maggie and for all of you Gwen...she is such a fighter and an inspiration--you ALL ARE!
Praising God for her recovery and praying for continued protection from infection!
Your faith is amazing and truly an inspiration to me. Her healing is truly a miracle. Thanks for sharing what the power of family can accomplish and thanks for being real. Praying for little Maggie.
Makes me cry of hearing about her "wounds" . Praying for complete healing for all her wounds. She is such a blessing :)