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Friday, October 10, 2008

So Hard, Yet SO Easy ...

I am not sure I have the words to explain my newest angel Ally Kat ... She is a perfect gift from God !!! There are many private things I can not share due to legal matters, but I will say she has a slight medical condition from her birth mother that makes her very fussy (please pray for her little body to heal) ... She cries a lot when she is awake and it just breaks my heart ... I am so exhausted, yet I have an energy source that comes only from the Lord ... He has given me a heart for interim care these past two weeks which I had never even explored before and I am praying about where this journey may go in the future ... I have been thinking a lot about the people who cared for my girls before I brought them home ... I feel Emily was cared for and loved, while I know Maggie was not ... It is hard to swallow sometimes thinking that everyone does not look at a helpless child and reach out to them, love them, help them, pray for them, and provide them w/ safety ... BUT IT IS TRUE ...

I appreciate all your sweet comments ... They are very encouraging to me and are a blessing to my heart ..I am accepting that God wants all of me and I feel over the past year I have been giving more of myself ... It is hard, it is tiring, it is a blessing, and it just seems to open the door even wider for what God wants of me and my family ... I enjoy seeking Him and I am trying hard to listen to the call WHATEVER THAT MAYBE ...

The kids are doing great w/ the our little angels ... Maggie walks around and tells everyone, "quiet baby sleeping" and of course Emily, Jeremiah, and Elijah just want to hold her ... Scott is being such a great support even when he knows the departure of them is hard on me ... I appreciate him following my heart on this one ...

I pray today that whoever is watching over my Abigail and Joseph will love them as much I have loved Gracie Lou and am loving Ally Kat ...

Blessings to all your weekends ... May the Lord speak into your heart and life each day ...

P.S. I love that I am never alone in my journeys ... Today, my friend Beth brought me a chocolate candy bar and diapers for Ally Kat, Katie, Yolanda, and Anna came by for cuddling duty, and Tara and Suzanne brought me my favorite cold stone ice cream (yes, I am chocolate lover) ... I have so many people who support me daily in life that I just can't say thanks enough ... We really are all in this together ...

23 kind words.:

Kim Kenward said...

May God give you the strength to continue this amazing gift. You are such a special Mommy, Gwen.

Isabella's Mommy and Daddy said...

You are AMAZING..
Hugs to you.. thinking of you always..
Love ya girly...

emily said...

You are such a gift! I get teary thinking about little Abigail and Joseph an ocean away, being loved I know by some sweet angel.....a mother, grandmother, aunt, nanny-- time will tell my friend. I can't wait to witness His goodness to you and them.

Amie@HeartSmiles said...

Gwen-

I am blessed for getting to witness God working BIG TIME in your life right now. Bless your sweet little heart for loving on that sweet little girl. I will pray in agreement with you for her little body to heal and for her to have some peace.

Praying you get some sleep and a bit of peace yourself!

Hugs to you!
:)
Amie

Melinda said...

Gwen, I just love your heart! It is such a wonderful thing to do in the name of Jesus to take care of and pray over His precious children. I will be praying for her mom and potential ap as well as for you and your family being ok when she leaves your home. It is a hard thing to do, to love kids only to send them on to someone else, but the need is great!

lisa k. said...

You truly are a gifted and incredible woman of God. Thank you for your obedience in following him in this new area of your life. I am sure the letting go is so hard, but you are the hands and feet of these precious ones that need you for now.

I love your blog and your openness to share your heart and to encourage so many of us. I will pray for sweet sleep for you both and that you will feel rested in the morning to keep up the pace with the rest of the fam. We have 6 and know the business but such a precious time too. You never know why these doors are being opened. Keep trusting!

Love, LIsa

auntie katie said...

i know your heart, dear one. some mornings i wake up with 10 kids pulling my hair and wonder WHERE the energy comes from. and the answer is simple: not me. a little coffee and a whole lot of Jesus :) take heart in knowing that as you cradle her, He cradles you.

love you!

holly m. said...

You are truly the Hands and Feet of Jesus, Gwen. Praying for your strength and peace.

Love to you,
Holly M.:)

Jewels of My Heart said...

I just love you.................

Mommy Spice said...

I love seeing what you're up to. What a heart you have. I am envious in a way...a good way. Our life is still in a transition, which makes each day difficult for me to know what to do. I look forward to being in the place God has planned for us so we can settle down and continue life as God desires. Give that little Ally Kat a nuzzle for me please.

jennifer said...

What an amazing journey you are on. You are awesome!!

missy said...

You dear girl! You really made me reflect on my precious Paige's loving foster mommy of 2.4 years. Wow, thanks and blessings to you and Ally Kat : )

amy said...

OH sweet friend,

Your posts bring me joy and smiles

Keep it up!

You are prayed for!

Jenn said...

I'm so glad that you are getting the opportunity to experience this. About a year after Yan came home, my agency called me...they had a little boy that had been adopted from Europe, came home, found out he had a severe illness and decided to disrupt. They asked that he be removed within 24 hours.

I was heartbroken for him and he stayed with us for a couple of weeks. Though I could not adopt him myself, it was a life and heart-changing experience for me...one that I will never forget.

You know have a part in changing the destiny of these precious little girls!

Shawnstribe said...

Dearest Gwen you are an AWESOME MOMMY!!!!!!
my prayeris that God coversyourhome with serenityand peace.
lots of love
xxx
s

Kristy said...

Your amazing Gwen!!! i have so much respect for you. God just keep smiling down on you girlie!!!

Love, Kristy

Denise C said...

You are so precious, Gwen!!! I am praying for you and that sweet little Allie-Cat! What a darlin' name for your little angel!!!
You are such a gift to so many!!!
I just adore your heart, sweet friend!
Many sweet blessings,
Denise

mom 2 many said...

Gwen,
You do have such a sweet heart and loving spirit! What a blessing that you have sweet Ally Kat to pray over and snuggle with each day.
Praying she heals quickly and you get a little more rest.

Blessings,
Carla

Nikki said...

Oh my dear friend, you have been in my thoughts and prayers SO often!
I wish I were there to bring you some chocolate and get some cuddle time with Ally Kat...
XX

Lori said...

You are a blessing!

Ashley said...

What an opportunity the Lord has given you to be a blessing to a precious child.

Diana said...

You truly are a amazing women!! You are making a difference in these babies lives!!

mommy24treasures said...

sounds like you do have some wonderful friends in your life! That is great.
I too pray your sweet angels are being loved... cherished....
I am so sorry for the time Maggie was alone:( BUT so thankful our Heavenly Father had a plan for his precious MAGS!
Praise God. He doesn't want any of us alone.
Praying for this sweet baby...
Love
C